House

I go through phases. Sometimes I just don’t want to write. Don’t want to blog, can’t seem to find the desire nor the inspiration. And other times I seem to write stupid amounts. A couple of times a day, at times. If the mood strikes. I think I’m in the more prolific cycle at the moment. But that’s okay, because when it comes down to it I’m writing for myself and not for anyone else. That’s not my intention here. If it was, I’d be writing a special interest blog (possible, one day, but not right now) and it would all be on the one topic. Not the contents of my head, lol.

However, I’m not here right now to ramble on about why I do things. I was thinking, whilst sitting here watching some French film on tv, about myself and not what makes me tick, but what interests me. The other day whilst talking to Sam in the shops I listed three things as my top interests: Tea, Die (Dice, in plural) and Hats. Rather peculiar really, and not everything that makes me who I am. So I got to thinking. My Top Ten?

1. Tea
2. Hats
3. Dice
4. Photography
5. Words
6. Water
7. Nature
8. Beauty
9. Sunrise
10. Cooking

Of course, as with any list, it fluctuates over time. Even on a day to day basis, given my moods. But there you go. Top 10. For right now anyway, lol.

I was hoping to feel better, once the operation was over and done with. That was the plan, it was the reason for going ahead with the surgery. But I don’t. To be honest, I think I feel worse now. Certainly not as good as I did. I’m not sleeping, and if I do, its sleep that’s tortured by dreams and semi-wakefulness. Not restful sleep, which is what I really need. I’m thinking I need to get some kind of sleeping pills to see if that works. But the last thing I feel like doing right now is going to the doctor.

Because, and seriously look at it from my point of view, I went to the doctor and I was told what would make me better. And, with complete faith in their judgment and ability I done as I was told. Granted, I did doubt at times. But I’m putting that down to everyday concerns that any normal person would have. In doing so, I’ve fixed one problem. But now I’ve got a couple of others, and the initial symptoms HAVEN’T gone away. Instead they seem to have been exacerbated. The one thing I had become almost desperate to have improved (and the one reason I was seriously hanging out for the operation) has been made tenfold worse. Within 10-15 minutes of eating, I feel nauseated and in need of the toilet. No matter how healthy the food might be.

Had a bit of a cry this morning. Well, a bit of a scream to if I’m really honest about it. Everything just got to being a bit too much for me I think. All the stuff that’s been building up over the last few weeks, months… a long time anyway… all came to a rather abrupt and noisome end. And THEN I had a bit of a cry. Sob. Bawl-like-a-baby. I got a few things off my chest though and, despite the inevitable sore throat that comes with such a vicious screech as the one I exhibited this morning, I’m fairly certain I feel markedly better for it.

We shall see how I handle the wedding today, however. And then decide if I really am feeling better or not.

A Simple Salad

So I guess it turns out that I make quite an nice salad. Even Sophie, someone who won’t touch fruit or vegetables, loves it. I’ve seen her polish off an entire plateful and ignore the fish and chips accompanying it!

INGREDIENTS:

carrot
spanish onion
lettuce
cup cheese
tomato
French Salad Dressing
NB: All ingredients listed are TO TASTE. There is no required amount for each. You prefer to have lots of tomato? Add in a heap! Don’t particularly like cheese, then use as little as possible.

DIRECTIONS:

Grate the carrot and cheese then mix the together in a large serving bowl. Finely, and I do mean finely!, slice the lettuce. Do the same for the red onion, its nicer in smaller doses than it is in large slices or chunks. Cut the tomato in half, then half again. Quarter it if the tomato was a large one. Add the lettuce and onion together with the carrot mix and drizzle over the dressing. Mix it all together with your hands, then scatter the tomato chunks over the top. Serve. Oh so simple! But oh so delicious.

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The above recipe is copyrighted to.. Cassandra Hort. Yes, that’s right… a recipe by myself. This recipe is copyright, blahblahblah…. You get the idea. Just let me know if you use it.