House

Sometimes life just gets put into perspective. Its weird that it happened to me today, I couldn’t really put my finger on what it was that made me so introspective. What’s really interesting about it though, is that its often things you knew already but for one reason or another was never something you really paid much heed to. Or instituted in your day to day life.

Thoughts for Today.

1. I can choose the people whose opinion’s actually matter to me. People can have an opinion, if that’s something that really floats their boat and I mean enough to them in some way that they feel so strongly about me. This doesn’t mean that their opinion should concern me.

2. Sam, Jo, Sally, Ian, Pop, Dad. These are the people I turn to. The people who know me best, and who I know will always be open and honest with me. Even if sometimes that might hurt. Especially if sometimes they might hurt me. These are the people who know that, even if they do hurt me, I will always eventually “see reason” and calm down. Even if I continue to disagree with them.

3. Sometimes things that you think are a big problem, aren’t. If you think about something too much, you create drama where there isn’t any. This is something that I especially should learn, and acknowledge in every day life. Its a principle that I understand, but have trouble putting into practice. Most dramas in life are imagined.

4. Spending your life worrying about what other people think of you can cause you to live your life in fear of being the person that you really are. Quite a simple thing to understand, really. And something I would imagine most people have been told at one point or another. But really, how many people actually believe it? Its hard not too think badly of yourself if someone puts you down. Say you’re struggling with your weight and someone calls you fat. It takes a lot of personal courage to shrug the comment off. Sometimes it takes even more courage to acknowledge that the barb did indeed bury itself within you and go down the positive affirmation route.

5. People that try and tell you what is best for YOU often don’t know what they’re talking about. They often have too few facts to really understand the person you are. They see the person they want to see, as well as the person you want them to see.

6. Trying to be someone your not never benefited anyone. Lying about who you are as a person can cause problems in the long term. Besides, how do you know that the people whose company you keep aren’t hiding the same things from you that you’re hiding from them. How many people around you are truly honest with themselves and other people about who they really are.

7. Pineapple really is one of my all time favourite fruits.

I’ve been delaying this post. I really should have done it last night but for reasons I cannot explain it didn’t happen. And if I don’t do it now, it won’t happen at all.

So here is my day yesterday in point form.

1. I’m packing up our house, nuff said.

2. I’m cleaning our house at the same time, again nuff said.

3. We recieved the letter in the mail that I discussed yesterday. Still angry.

4. I electrocuted myself.

5. The emergency department at the local hospital are useless. I have always believed this, and was given further evidence to support it last night.

6. I HURT.

I am so mad right now.

We got a letter in the mail this morning from the real estate agent, informing us of a breach. Nothing to do with the rent inspection the other day. This was something entirely different.

They’re breaching us because we haven’t paid a water bill.

It was THEIR responsibility to send us an invoice whenever we had a water bill to pay, but they never have. The last water bill we received, was a week or so after we moved on, and was ALSO in the form of a breach notice. Which we duly paid.

I am FURIOUS!

This estate agent is possibly the worst I’ve ever come across. They’re breaching us, without sending us anything prior to today about it?!?

Come off it!

Asshats.

My head used to be full of so many things. I used to have so many thoughts buzzing around in there that it was hard to keep up with. Why its been having so much trouble lately I don’t understand. Its stagnated; no original thought.

What to do?

Anton came down this weekend, took some of our furniture up to Perth. We’ve got half a couch left in the lounge, and he took the shelves we’re gonna use as a pantry. As well as our chest of drawers. Its suddenly became more “real”, I haven’t really had a chance to look at it properly until now. A week ago, we learned that we’d be moving up to Perth. In another week, we’ll be up there. Its been all so surreal the last few months. Its like life has decided to grab a hold of the reins and steer itself for awhile. I’ve not really had any choice but to go where the flow takes me.

Its good that I wanna go where this flow is heading, at least

I’ll be glad to get out of this slump my brain has been in of late. I am by nature a very tidy, clean person. I hate being surrounded by mess. I think that’s Mum’s influence mostly. And I was clean and tidy when I first met Sam, after I moved in (and, before I did as well!) I cleaned the place in College Grove from top to bottom. And kept it clean, too. Since moving into this place on Picton Road things haven’t been quite the same. Its smaller, but I can’t keep it tidy, let alone clean. And the longer it goes that way, the more I hate having to do it.

So hopefully getting out of here will remedy that somewhat.

Also looking forward to getting away from Bunbury. There’ll be people I’ll miss, especially having our parents so close (although John and Robyn aren’t anywhere near as close as my parents) and a couple of friends, but Perth has friends, opportunities… I think it’ll be good for us. Its probably about time it happened. I know we said we’d never “do” Perth, but here we are. Doing it, lol.

May already have a job. I’d initially told people I DO have one, but after rethinking the conversation I had on the phone it WAS all “You have a job” until I mentioned not being in Perth for another week or so. Then she became rather vague. She gave me contact details and said to call as soon as I get up to Perth, but IS that a job?

Its been raining all morning. And thunderstorming. Beautiful weather. At 10:30, I thought it was only 7:30. I love it when the day feels so much earlier than it really is. There’s something magical about KNOWING its that late, but still having the warm, cozy sensation of it being early. And I love rain, which is great. I’ve got the desire to go down to the Basalt, stand on the rocks and watch the storm beating against the shoreline. At the moment, its just a matter of getting Sam motivated enough to go, too.

So I went into the bedroom, where he’s drinking tea and reading the book I’m in the middle of, to try and convince him to go down there with me. While talking to him, it occurred to me that there’s a lot of things we won’t be able to do as easily, now that we’re moving to Perth. Dunsborough, and therefore Castle Rock, are going to be a lot further away now, no longer as accessible in the summer months for swimming, snorkeling and underwater photography. So we won’t get down there as often, and we won’t beach as much either because I hate crowded beaches, but when we do go down it’ll be a proper trek-stay-overnight-styles’o'thing. Which’ll be great!

Now its got me thinking about all the things that won’t be as easy for us to do anymore. Still doable, certainly. But its a little distressing that the farm won’t be close anymore. I don’t know what I’m going to be like when we move to Tasmania. =\

Maybe this holiday over there with Margs and Dean will help with forming ties over there to partly replace the one’s we’ll be losing. I think I’ll need to get cosy with a couple of farmers

Sam’s debts paid off, and at least $2K in the bank.
Both of us having lost 15kg, and sticking to our healthy eating habits.
If not already building/buying by the end of the five years then in the process of doing so.
Cass: To have finished/or be in the middle of uni.
Sam: To be studying metalsmithing, producing own jewelry/art.
To be living in Perth.
Have gone on holidays to Tasmania.
First child on the way when Cass is 29….

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Now to work out how to achieve it all

“To create change in your life, the first thing you have to do is dream. Dream of your future. Dream of what you want. Imagine your life as you feel it ought to be lived.” - Coach Yourself; Anthony Grant and Jane Greene

Ding Dong.

Its time for a blog post. Why, I’m not sure. I’m trying to watch Bleach to be honest and I should concentrate on it. Mostly because its in another language so I have to read the subtitles to really understand it. But also because its not the easiest thing to follow if you miss bits here and there.

Life is busy. I thought when the wedding was over everything would calm down a bit, and I’d not be so busy all the time. I had to take today off just to get my head around everything. To quieten down my poor thoughts before I had a nervous breakdown. Sam is not likely to be happy about it, but I needed it. To be honest, I feel like I need more than a day. To spend time by myself, without outside influence. Now that I’m married I’ll not longer truly be alone, I guess… Not that I’m complaining about that part. I mean more in a physical sense, than anything else. Today’s been great for that. I did have an interruption from the real estate agent, but that wasn’t for long.

On Saturday we had Chris’ birthday party here. It wasn’t as big as I was thinking it would be, nowhere near it in fact. But there were two bands and fire twirling and loads of drunk people. I’m glad I didn’t have to do any of the clean up afterwards, I sat inside and done my own thing. I had fun, and I was gothed up. Should have got photos to share! Sam rated me a 10/10 for hotness. Better than the weekend before at the wedding, apparently! He said I should’ve gone goth to the wedding, lols ^_^. Not sure if I’ll do it again, but a lot of people made comments and said the look suited me. Caught up with a friend I met a few years ago, and haven’t really seen in awhile. He’s awesome… carrot-top, with long dreads. Wears a kilt. Great fun. Great guy.

I was supposed to have a rent inspection tomorrow, but apparently it was today. The house wasn’t up to scratch, but that’s okay. There’s a few things that need to be done, but I’ll speak to the housemates and whatnot tonight and get it all sorted. I’m just glad they never noticed the gate. We still haven’t gotten around to repairing it after Sam drove into it.

And, we’re moving in a week and a half. Thereabouts, anyway. Not this weekend coming, but the one after it. I need to find a place to keep all of our things, and get packed. A few people have offered us space, it just means when we go to move into our own place (when we find one!) we’ll have to do a bit of running around to get all our things together, lol. We’ll be moving in with Anton for the time being, until we get our own place. He got Sam a job with the company he works at, so there’s one thing sorted. Now I just have to find work.

I dunno why, but everything seems stupid amounts of stressful lately. Hopefully life settles down soon. I wanna get into a routine. I miss routine.

Sometimes the way my brain works surprises me. Its insane.

… but I’m not. Initially this was because a friend of ours had his mother die this morning. Just before I came online to check my email, from what I understand. I then spent a few hours talking to him. Or rather listening, while he talked. And offered him an invitation to come down here as he mentioned not wanting to be alone today. Then it became, well… I’m here now aren’t I? I may as well blog about the wedding.

I think if I done the honeymoon with this entry it would be so stupidly long, I could be here all day working on it. So for now. Just the basics, a few photos, that kind of thing.

So without further procrastination I give you…

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